The Jonas' going places

This is a hot time for the Jonas Brothers.
I got a feeling they're gonna be huge one day.



The Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes

Love partner + friends = a healthy Balance

Here's a tip for anyone with relationships and even a memo for me! Just in case I forget.

love partner + friends = a healthy relationship

I have always believed in this (or more like, just realised this after my break-up), and so have some people I know. The one I had with H was considered an unhealthy one. He got jealous when I talked to my guy friends and slowly I realised I got to see/spend less time with my other friends. And they did come back with scary mesages like "why did you ditch us?"

But after talking to Mr V, I realise being loyal to your significant other is important. But so is maintaining your relationship with your friends. I will always need my friends until the day I die. Spending a romantic time with the man you love is completely different from spending time with your girlfriends, having a fun time gossiping and watching chick flicks. So that means you should let your man spend time with his boyfriends and enjoy their boytime as well.

That's a plus plus for your happiness.

a girl and the Dell

Knuckles are starting to turn a little blue-purple since that night. But I'm feeling a little better.
Big brother took a whole lot of worry off my head.

He asks - do you remember the surprise I told you about?

I say - what surprise?

dadadada *fast forward*

I - i'm saving up for a laptop

He - you know, the surprise may actually be a laptop

I - really?

He - no, i mean, yes

I - (smileeeeeeeeeee)

He suggested a Dell because you can easily upgrade and other stuffs I didn't really understand. But on a condition that I pay half, which I thought is okay rather than I pay the full price. Whoopee.

R.I.P Heath

Heath Ledger was found dead this morning in his apartment in NY.
He was only 28.

What a sad, sad day.

The foggy Abyss

I was watching Gilmore Girls the other night. It was about Rory (right). She's about to graduate from Yale but has no clue as what to do after. And she started to break down.

Then it made me worry. I have been thinking but just unsure of what to do. Now I'm even more worried. But I have a few things planned out. So I shall pen it down before I forget.

Goals for upcoming months:

Start writing resume
Start doing showreel
Try at MTV + ME project
Finish t-shirt designs
Start picking up jobs
Should I opt for uni this year/next?

(these aren't really related to my career and stuff but they're goals)

Stop biting lips
Stop scratching pimples

A Beautiful Lie

A Beautiful Lie is a letter away from a Beautiful Life. It’s an oxymoron. It’s optimistic. Like the rose and its thorns, or the Beauty and the Beast.

I think one unique thing about human beings is our constant need to escape. Each time we encounter a problem, whether it’s with others, ourselves, or with work, we feel like we haven’t done ourselves justice if we do not keep ourselves happy. Because that's important to us humans.

If we're not happy, we can't carry out a proper conversation. If we're not happy, we can't walk straight. If we're not happy, life seems so meaningless all of a sudden.

So sometimes we lie to ourselves, through escapism. We feel as if we have to ‘escape’ into another world, forget about the shit we have even if it’s just for a little while.

We have to ‘escape’ to forget our problems. We start finding modes of disposal to regulate our feelings. Some people listen to music, some go to the movies, write, some prefer kicking and punching things, and some prefer the more dangerous methods of drugging, smoking, cutting, drinking and so on.

There’s something unhealthy about keeping so much emotions inside that it becomes a natural cathartic process to put it out.

But sometimes we also feel the need to put on a mask, perhaps to make other people happy or to protect them from a certain truth. Like having to smile, even though you're mad about something. Having to smile, even though your family's breaking down. Having to smile, even though you've lost a loved one. Having to smile even though you don't feel like it.

There’s always the saying of honesty being the best policy. But sometimes.. just sometimes, a little bit of lying won’t hurt. Especially if it helps us in our mental and emotional self-development, our relationship with the people around us, and our past, present and future.

Modern Myth

There was a moment when I felt I was holding the biggest secret I could ever hold in my entire lifetime, that even my best friend could not know and that all hell and heaven and whatever
will break loose if they did..

but when the truth came out, it was one of the worst feelings I had.. and at that point, this song came on my mp3 player...

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Did we create a modern myth
did we imagine half of it
would happen in a thought from now
save yourself, save yourself

The secret is out, the secret is out...

To buy the truth and sell a lie
the last mistake before you die
so don't forget to breathe tonight
tonight's the last so say good-bye

The secret is out, the secret is out...

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye...